School

I'm afraid of this year.

This year will decide my life, better school will decide my life.


When I think about it, when I think about the future..


I feel like I want to die.

I can't take the fear that future give me.

Human nature -.-'

Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former.
                                        by Albert Einstein  US (German-born) physicist (1879 - 1955)

I'M ALIVE Lyrics - BECCA

I'm Alive lyrics

Nothing I say comes out right
I can't love without a fight
No-one ever knows my name
When I pray for sun, it rains
I'm so sick of wasting time
But nothings moving in my mind
Inspilation can't be found
I get up and fall but...

[CHORuS]
I'm ALIVE!
I'm ALIVE! Oh, yeah
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I sleep when I die
I live, My life, I'm ALIVE!

Every lover breaks my heart
And I know it from the start
Still I end up in a mess
Every time I second Guess
All my friend's just run away
When I'm having a bad day
I would rather stay in bed
But I know there's reasons

[CHORuS]Repeat

When I'm bored to death at home
When he won't pick up the phone
When I'm stuck in second place
Those regrets I can't erace
Only I can change the end
Of the movie in my head
There's no time for misery
I won't feel sorry for me

[CHORuS]
[CHORuS]

Major boring

 This last two days were so boring.
Geez I think they are the most boring days that I ever have.

Nothing to say, nothing to see, nothing to do.. BORING !!

What causes this boredom? I don't have a clue. Maybe a lack of interesting people, that people that I call "human puzzles", interesting and mysterious people I miss you.

Anyway I hope my guitar comes this month, it might bring a little joy to my life, who knows.

Main word (of this two days): boring

It is worth it?

 I have contact with a dilemma today.
About friendship, relations, trust.
The dilemma is: We need love, attention, but we can't trust in anyone.
We need to feel that someone love us, that cares about us, that we aren't alone. But for that we need trust. 
We can't trust people, everybody know that. We will get hurt no matter what. Is human nature just to care about themselves.
When we make a connection, a bond with someone we stay happy, we feel somebody its here to support us but when we realize that are bunch of lies, that we put some much trust and faith in that person, we feel empty, desolate,betrayed.

My question is worth feel the pain just to feel that happiness in the begging?
In think that is not worth, I prefer spend all my life alone, without anyone inside of my world then feeling the pain when a link is broken.I have felt so many times that pain but for some stupid reason I forget it.

Main words: pain, trust

Funny Day I guess

This day was a fun.  I guess.

I did the exam today, he went pretty well I guess.

Anyway a girl that I know, not a smart one but she is good in the theme of the exam, was insisting in lot of answer that she was right and for her to be right I should be wrong. But  I ended being right in most of then.
That was fun that feeling of being right against someone that you hate, it was unbelievable fun.

(-- Explaining the hate: I hate this girl because we used to be friend like 2nd year of school or something like that, anyway last year I was confuse and a break up with my boyfriend and return a couple of times, I know I was being awful, and one time I do that it was the last time, she approach of him and she was telling things like "you should leave her", "she is not right for you", "if she love, she shouldn't break up with you all the time", all things behind my back, this have hurt me really deep, anyway obviously she end up dating with him until today, I call this chapter of my life Nise Chapter, the time when I realize that I can't trust in anyone... --)

Main word (and sorry about getting thing off my chest like that):fun

Tired of studying

I will sleep now..
Tomorrow will be the day of the exam. This exam will literally decide my life.

I have spent all this day studying. I'm not so good at memorizing stuff. I'm more good at logic math chemistry.
Anyway I have gave my best. Is up to luck now.

Most of the time I have luck, not in playing games or finding money or even in getting hurt, 'cause I get injured all the time.
In the important things I have luck, when I deserve something and just need a little luck I have it.
I think in away this reality is fair to me.

Main word of today (in this case tonight):luck